You have a rather difficult situation at hand. Are you really trusting God? A lot of times you think you really are when you are not.
Many times you want a visual confirmation from God. The other thing is that you keep asking Him what to do next and then all you hear back is the same answer. You hear the same answer for a step/direction over and over again and you get frustrated. Why do you think this is? Really think about this for a moment.
The reason is you don’t want to do it the way God is telling you and you want the approval from God to handle the situation in a way that YOU are comfortable with instead. The way God is telling you makes absolutely no sense at all to your natural mind. This is perfect! God’s way requires you to simply trust Him!
Lets see what the Paul says in 1 Corinthians 2:9
“However, as it is written:
“What no eye has seen,
what no ear has heard,
and what no human mind has conceived”[a]—
the things God has prepared for those who love him—”
I highly encourage you to read the chapter of 1 Corinthians 2 right now and allow Holy Spirit to minister to you more.
Often times your natural mind will absolutely NOT understand that direction God is giving you. Just as a child has to trust the parent, this is how we are to trust God. We do NOT need to know WHY. He will not always tell you why, because you may not be ready to understand it at that time. God may reveal that to you at a later time. You should OBEY His direction and strategy without question. Habitually, you become stubborn and tell God (indirectly) “tell me or I won’t do it”.
Things you NEED to remember:
- God will always have your best interest at heart
- He knows you better than you know yourself
- God can see when you will hit a dead end from your own action
- He wants you to trust Him period!
Lets go back to the Word. Read Proverbs 3:5-6
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart;
do not depend on your own understanding.
Seek his will in all you do,
and he will show you which path to take.”
Does it say to “trust the Lord with PART of your heart”? No! It says ALL. Trust Him with ALL of your heart. You always end up fighting to do things the way you understand it BUT the Word says otherwise. God knows the consequences of your own decisions, so He tells you NOT to depend on your own understanding and to seek HIS WILL in ALL you do. It doesn’t matter if you are planning to go somewhere or do something, ask God if its okay and if it is His will for you.
I highly encourage you to read the entire Proverbs 3 chapter as well.
In whatever you are facing right now, ask the Holy Spirit to help you and to guide you. The Holy Spirit is always available and happy to help. You just have to ask. Be blessed!